Something personal to share...

Here it goes... everything was well with my 2nd pregnancy, I was enjoying the pregnancy stages and went for regular checkups, everything was fine, bub's healthy and I'm healthy. When I was in labor, I had an emergency episiotomy and my beautiful Ronan came into the world. Within the next couple of days, I suddenly had excrutiating pain and blood clots. Went to the hospital and was suspected that my uterus was infected due to the episiotomy. Sigh... had anti-biotics for treatment. Thought problem solved but later realised that there was a lump on my abdomen. Initially the doc thought it could be my uterus but after much checking, my uterus has already fully gone down, that might be something else. Well, was referred to get an ultra-sound scan, did that, results came back as possible "Hematoma" which is bruises/clot in my abdomen wall muscle and that could have happened due to my strenuous pushing during labor. I was told it should be fine and the lump should gradually subside.

However that didn't happen! After 4mths later, lump is still there and size feel the same so once again, I went back for another ultra-sound scan and a Biopsy to determine the cause. I've just gone back to my GP last Fri to get the results and guess what.... I was told that it's not just Hematoma, it may be a soft-tissue tumor! How do you think I would react? Of course I was in real shock! Why didn't they do a biospy in the 1st place when I had the lump? I was frustrated and at same time upset about it cos in my heart I was thinking.... Y ME? I've been healthy and been several health checks and nothing wrong but why now? I was told that there's nothing I could do but to go for excision. Therefore my GP referred me to a well-known surgeon.

I just went to see the surgeon on Mon. He felt the lump and believed that it's "DESMOID TUMOR". This type of tumor is rare and usually happen only after pregnancy. :( I'm just the unlucky one to have it. Because the growth is in my abdomen wall tissue and it can grow rapidly, massively and deadly, he had to do an agressive operation which is to remove most of my muscle and then replace with a mesh. Damn... medical term is too deep for me, a commoner, to understand. Thank god my hubby was there and he understood every single word the surgeon advise. So there it started... I have to go through 2 operations. First op will be biospy of the tissue which happened yesterday. It was a day surgery and I was discharged in the evening. The stitches vertically down (about 5cm long) just in the middle, right side of my abdomen. The pain was still endurable cos I've been taking painkillers. Now... all I need to do is to wait for the actual results and the next operation will be on next Wed. That will be the major one and if it's confirmed Desmoid Tumor, then he'll have to cut me up more... probably below my breasts all the way down to near pelvis. OUCH OUCH OUCH... That's too emotional for me! The problem is I scarred easily, even a mosquitoe bite could scar me , let alone this LONG scar which I'm gonna have on my belly and gonna be a PERMANENT one! How can I accept that... I can't but I have no choice. In order to survive, I have no other choice but to go through this op!
I've cried and cried but my tears have dried and all I wish is this problem to end so I can move on. I will then later have to learn to deal with the scar... at most, no more bikinis, no more exposing of my belly...etc...

Oh well, I just need to let it all out. It's just hard to keep it inside me, at least I felt better after expressing on my blog. Thankfully I have a supportive hubby and wonderful in-laws here for me. (As I'm all alone here in Perth and family back in spore)

Latest pics of me and my beloved family

Well, this is my 1st attempt of cut crease. Wat do you think of it?

My first attempt of wearing false lashes. Even though it's the Revlon Fantasy self-adhesive lashes, it still took me awhile to put them on. Damn...

But in the end, it's worth trying! :)

Random pics of me and my family... from Dec 09 to Jan 10!

HOT HOT WEATHER!!!!

Aarrrrgghhh... the weather here is unpredictable... Last week was kinda windy and pleasant and then by end of week, sudden change of weather to extreme heat/humid! On last Sat was 39 degrees and on Sun (my son's b'day party) was 41 degrees! My gosh... thank god we held the party in-door! This week's even worse... Very hot and humid... weather will remain in the 40s range... It's killing me!

"HOT ASS BITCH" palette from Bitch Slap Cosmetics

Hi yall... as mentioned on my blog last Fri, here are the pics taken.

Swatched Dry... super pigmented!

Swatched Dry...

Swatched with primer (from Highvoltage Cosmetics)

So there you go!!!

Received a packge from Bitchslap Cosmetics (Purchases from them)

I'm happy to receive a package from BitchSlap Cosmetics. The envelope was big but only contain of a small eyeshadow quad which I've ordered from them "Hot Ass Bitch". Gosh... thank god, all the shadows were intact, no cracks. Just tried the colors on my hand. Wow... love it! From Yellow, Orange, Red and Pink... all matte and surprisingly very pigmented especially the red one. I will soon upload the pics and show you guys. For now... have to attend to my kids! Hee... till then, have a nice day yall!

Earth-glo minerals

I've recently purchased 2 items from Earth-Glo minerals via ebay. They also have their own website: http://www.earthglominerals.com/



The 2 items are:-

1. Wonderworks Prep-prime and adjust primer/veil - Oil free (stated as compare to Make Up Forever's HD Microfinish). Price: USD$6.79 for 10ml (They have 30ml for USD$14.95)


2. Stay put eyeshadow primer potion. Price: USD$4.50 (price exclu. shipping cost)

I've received the items yesterday and did some testing today. It's nice of them to include some free eyeshadow samples.

I have not tried Make Up Forever HD Microfinish so I can't comment or compare them. All I can say is the Wonderworks is very finely milled, soft and buttery smooth. I mean REALLY SMOOTH... Like silicon. I only tried out on my hands and I like it. Have not tried on my face so I have yet to know whether it does help with oil control. Shall update you guys later about it.

As for Stay put eyeshadow primer potion, it's kinda small tube with applicator wand. It's gel like, not sticky/tacky, when applied on, feels cool and as per instructions, allow to dry briefly but not completely and then apply the eyeshadows on top of primer. (This is also part of the Primer comparisons which I've posted earlier on)

Here's the pics:-

PS: Different people with different opinion or different skin, so some may think it's good and some may not. Well, it does work for me so here's my opinion on them.

I've tried out the free samples given. Top row is without primer and bottom row is with the primer. I'm pretty impress with the primer. I like it! When I just applied their shadows on bare hand, they didn't really show the colors, fade away easily. However when I put the same shadows on top of the primer, it's a miracle, color shows out more and I've tried rubbing off, the top row faded away almost immediately whilst the shadows on primer remain as they were (not much faded no matter how hard I rub) That's great rite!

Well, you should check it out and if you have tried out, let me know what do you think of it?

My new haircut!

Oh yes... I've had my hair cut on last Sat. It's summer now in Perth n weather can be extremely hot. Therefore I had my hair short. What do you think? I kinda like it. Head felt lighter. At this moment, trying to keep my fringe long but later stage I may consider to have it short... I mean "real short" to match with the bob style. Oh well, that will be later in future! :)

Before

After